the only one

well i have done really good for three weeks and i felt great i do not know what caused today to be different, but i thought about every thing and it brought up things i still do not know how to face and i do not want to think about but yet i do......the only way i seem to have found peace today was to run away from every thing and just feel the pain that laid in my heart.
its the thing that drives me to do better in life, its the thing that has given me the strenght to be the best i can be, its the thing that i have grown to love and hate all in time. but in time it well give me happiness.