battle field

I wake and think of all the blood shade, and the tears that where shade.
i think about how i have steped on many of my friends in the battles that i fight.
i know see that all the battles that i thought i have won were all just places that i lost more then a fight with in my life but i have cast away many friendships in thoughts battles.
With the raise of the sun i now know that i must learn that i have to cut my losses and ask thoughts friends for forgiveness and hope that some day that i can step out from be hind the certain that i live behind.

i have talk about all the pain that i have lived in the world, i thought for many years that it was all due to the things that were going on in my life. but i know see that it was just my yeiling out and cause the pain myself. i know now that i can be thought with the talks a sadness since i have noticed that i have a place in the world as a happy smiling face to bright the day of a dark cloud world.

i may talk and preach pain from time to time but thats only due to the fact that with out pain in the world there can be now thing such as happiness. without a prepose to live that is nothing but a empty shelf left to walk around and take up space...

i leave you with the dawning of a new day.........