wondering

Have you ever thought that the world was here for you to play in. After thinking over the last week and enjoying my self in my new apartment. i have talk to some old friends and hung with some new ones i have found that i have more fun when i am playing around in the world and not careing what others think.
The big thing is that i have learned that i can not always chase after the things i want, some times i just need to sit back and let them come to me for once. i now know that i have to just sit and ride the ride of life and even think will work out with me and everythink.....

from the soul

Addicted"Have I told you how good it feels to be me,when I'm in you?I can only stay cleanwhen you are around.Don't let me fall. If I close my eyes forever,would it ease the pain?Could I breathe again?[Chorus:]Maybe I'm addicted, I'm out of control,but you're the drugthat keeps me from dying. Maybe I'm a liar,but all I really know isyou're the only reason I'm trying.I am wasted away,I made a million mistakes.Am I too late?There is a storm in my head;it rains on my bedwhen you are not here.I'm not afraid of dying,but I am afraid of losing you.[Chorus:]Maybe I'm addicted,I'm out of control,but you're the drugthat keeps me from dying.Maybe I'm a liar,but all I really know isyou're the only reason I'm trying. When you're lying next to melove is going through to me. Oh it's beautiful.Everything is clear to me'till I hit realityand I lose it all...I lose it all...I lose it all. I lose it all...Nah nah nahnah nah nah....Nah nah nah nah nah nah..... nah nah nah nah nah nah....You're the only reason,Yeah, you're the only reason I'm trying,Oh, I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying,Don't want to lose it all,Don't want to lose it all,I'm trying, I'm trying..I'm trying ...Yeah, you know I'm addicted,You know I'm addicted,Yeah, you know I'm addicted...

repayment

the world is more then a ball of rock to me, it's a playground full of things to do. I have always wanted to just not care and let the world do its own thing. when payment comes your way never over spent it, due to the fact that no one really has that payment in there hands. the world in itself well all balance out once things settle down.... to the people who suck go blow me and stay out of my bussiness... it was given to me and now taken away. so unless you want the pain brought to your door step leave you eyes and ears out of my life......

MuSic

the one thing that i seen to alway relay on is listening to music. i do this due to the fact that the music that i listen to either lifts me up and puts me into a good mood or seems to cause all my worries desappear. the odd thing that i have neaver understood is how sometimes the music that i listen to seems to be driveing the feels that i feel even farthere into confussion..

Iam not saying that music is the solution to every thing but it seems to be the sulation to alot of my problems so if i am enjoying a nice beer and kicken the tunes i mnight be left the old feels and think out my problems or just try to find happyness for that day.

seems to me that i am in a good mood more then bad and the rest of the world should get with it i am haveing fun and loving it.

Girls

Girls are so confussin, you get ones number and she like why do you want it and plays hard to get and then you can and she plays stuiped and never calls you like she is never there or never gets the message .

what a load of shit...

well as i am still looking for either i girl to just share some good time talk to or just hanging out i will sit here i try i figure why we our all on this earth and cause more pain to my heart and mind as they fight ver who should control my life...

the only thing that keeps my happy is listening to music and talking to my close friends that add hope to my life........