one Week

wow a week is a long time where many things can happen, some of them being bad and make you sad and just want to get away form it all. some that are good thing that make you wish your were in that some place or event all week but at least with the few good things that happen in a week you can always go bake to those good things that happen to cheer you up...

my week start witha great day of events, most of the were little things that made the day but at least they mad my day. i am glad i had a week that could start out withmy birthday the way it did.... but from there on out i think the week just keep getting worst and worst for me.
with ever day that went by i had some thing that went wrong...

now i just hope that i can end the week on a strong note so i do not have to thing about all the negavtive things that happen this week to me.......

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the one thing that i see day to day i a plain blue sky, the one thing that i feel ever day is desire. the funny thing about all this is that i have to deal with this when i wal up and when i go to bed. its not so bad i have learned to deal with the pain of not know what to do. i mean i wish i was s open as people thought but when it comes down to it i believe in the out ways of the knights "chivary". and form some odd rest ihave never fualt for what i want. i may have to find away to go after what i desire more then any thing right now what that may be is something i may not be able to have. well at least if i have the worlds and actions to fight i will be able to say i aleast fought the fight and played my cards

More form the soul

Well I still sit back and wonder were life is going to take me and what the universe has planned for me but I do know one thing what ever it is I well find out in due time. Day to day I walk this earth just like so many but the difference that I have among many other I beat to a different drum and my own beat... I have many thing to offer the world but some times I just enjoy the nice relaxing idea of vanity, I say this do to the fact of I find my self listen to many different songs a looking at myself in the mirror tiring to find how the songs I listen to can relate to my inter personal so will.

some of the lyrics i thing go will with me from the songs i like to ponder.

The Killers:
Somebody Told Me
Breaking my back just to know your nameSeventeen tracks and I've had it with this gameI'm breaking my back just to know your nameBut heaven ain't close in a place like thisAnything goes but don't blink you might miss Cause heaven ain't close in a place like thisI said heaven ain't close in a place like thisBring it back down, bring it back down tonightNever thought I'd let a rumour ruin my moonlight

Finger Eleven:
Other Light
Never tell your friendsThey’ll never understandConfessions only burn themselves in the fireChoke on every wordThat no one’s ever heardYour sentimental thoughts are strangled and tired

Complicated Questions
Easy to be taken with everything you’re sayingMake us perfect and say it all againBut if every single second’s killingTell me I’m dreamingI’ll sleep it all awayTear out this loveTear up the rootTear out this loveTear me from youYou know you can tell me anything you want toTell me something that I’d never knowCould be cautious as the words roll over your tongueI’m stung with sick discoveryTear me from these complicated questions Taking all the empty spaces inside meBut complicated answers never did you any justice anywayComplicated as we are we’re going have to burn it all awayComplicated answers take up all the empty spaces inside meBut complicated answers never did you any justice anywayComplicated as we are we’re going to tear out this love

Well there are many more that i find intressing but i am not goingto boar you with my addiction of music and song lyrics anymore

weekend of fun

well i am off for a week end of fun. i am going to the beach and i am not sure what we plan on doing all week end but i know for sure we will be avoiding a hurricane shold be fun...call me is you need anything or want a gift from then beach..........

pain

The thing that is on my mine, is pain. What pain for the longest time to me has been, that one can not feel pain if there is no risk involved in a action of life, and if the person has no emotation toward anything then theres no way he can feel pain. so in the light of taking a risk you yourself risk haveing the chance of feeling pain. So i guess what i am saying is that cold hard people in the world have it easier then the rest of the world since theres not pain in ther life..

the other thing i have noticed if you waiting for some thing you have more pain then most people due to the fact of you are wanting some thing to happen and you don't really want to wait for it to, but your to scared to make it happen because there is a greater risk involved in doing something then just waiting for it hence more pain. since it would chance the way things are form now and now why you wait you are comfortable jsut waiting and you have learned to deal with the pain that is there but do not want to cause more pain then you already haveto deal with.

last but not least; if you thing about all the times you have every hurt you self or been hurt you have to look at why it hurt so bad to loss something or why it hurt so bad. i feel is that you had you heart into some thing that you true cared about or you were try to do some thing that was important to you and you lost it when you end up hurting your self or feld to achive your goal that you set forward for your self...

what is pain for you????