battle field

I wake and think of all the blood shade, and the tears that where shade.
i think about how i have steped on many of my friends in the battles that i fight.
i know see that all the battles that i thought i have won were all just places that i lost more then a fight with in my life but i have cast away many friendships in thoughts battles.
With the raise of the sun i now know that i must learn that i have to cut my losses and ask thoughts friends for forgiveness and hope that some day that i can step out from be hind the certain that i live behind.

i have talk about all the pain that i have lived in the world, i thought for many years that it was all due to the things that were going on in my life. but i know see that it was just my yeiling out and cause the pain myself. i know now that i can be thought with the talks a sadness since i have noticed that i have a place in the world as a happy smiling face to bright the day of a dark cloud world.

i may talk and preach pain from time to time but thats only due to the fact that with out pain in the world there can be now thing such as happiness. without a prepose to live that is nothing but a empty shelf left to walk around and take up space...

i leave you with the dawning of a new day.........

word from the editor

its became hard to tell who is respondeing to my writes of recent days i can only as if you want to help my i would love to know who all you are if you could sign your name at the bottom of you entires if you want i am not going to make you just i ask if you could if you would like to remain a secert then that is fine with me that you

it was 53 i win the race

out in the open

remember the time
remember the place
a man with out a soul is man with a face
a place, a word
nothing to say
but to remember the time i told you to your face
i now step back and try to tell myself
the only thing is that you are the one who gives me strenght
a light, a time and a place to go in the future
i just need to be sure i live for ever and move on in the world
the only way is to find that place
that time and that place.

the box

i see it every day it sits on the floor of my room its black and white wraped in news paper
the only thing i get from it bing there is the will to drive forward moving past everything the box is about.

i know not what the box is there to remind me of, the past that i lived thought before and the times i live thorght now thinking of you i just only know one thing about his box on the floor it tells me that i am perfectly complety with me life as it is moveing on with it. I look forward to one day know i will part with it, but know that i have grown use to it being there, it will be there and stay with me as i move forward.

i love my close friends and by the way if you have to ask your stuiped...

END the First look

with the last semseter in it starting i have to look at how i see things. most people would be nervouse i seen to look at its a last chance to see how you can grown as a person and look more about your self then how to spend the resst of you life. after the first day ijust want to be able to enjoy the small thing for the next 5 months